I can finally sit down to write.

Things with Katelyn are going far better. We've begun keeping a journal of each other and hiding it. Questions and scribbles. Things for our eyes only. It's helping immensely. What a lovely girl for considering that. Smarter than I.

I haven't heard from Gia or Alex in over a week. I promised Theo I would take care of her but she doesn't want my help and won't stay at the apartment. It's paid for through the end of the month. She has a key.

I'm broke. We have enough food for the next day or so then that's it. Enough credits to get us on a train and moved out of Parris. We can't stay here. There's no work for a 25 year old pilot with my record. The Cafe downstairs doesn't even seem interested in me. 'Overqualified' they said. I won't put to screen what I think of their opinions. I'm moving us back to Ning Jing. If they won't take us I think I might be able to work something with Hanna's girlfriend. Niya is simply a doll. I hope she decided to stay out there.

Katelyn has purely inspired me. I'm just going to march out to the Jing and demand they rehire me. I don't care what the Elders say. It ain't right to toss someone out like they have to me.

I heard from him tonight. He's gone- wants nothing to do with us. She's due in two months. The 'papers' are fingerprinted and being delivered to Osiris for processing. The ring comes off. Good riddence. We're stronger without him. Dad said he's pulling strings to get the Wang Ba Duhn railroaded into a desk job on Lilac. I told him not to waste time. Dad insisted.

Katelyn and her mother are reunited.

Its only now that I can bring myself to put my brain to the PDA for download. Horrible things. Awful. She's gone. Again- Off with someone else and there is nothing I can do. Hanna had to wait til she was off-planet. Likely he knows what I did to the last man who tried to take her from me forceful-like. Maybe he's not as dumb as I give him credit for. Niya says he's working hard on the case. I dont see it but then again- I dont see everything. Espcially locked in my own hotel room.

Niya. Without her, I don't think I would still be functioning. She got me to smile. Something I didnt think I could do again. Those gifts!!!!! Ill never be able to pay her back. Its not possible. But I need to try. Especially for the locket.

I don't know if I can stay here anymore. Every time I look around the room, I see things that remind me of her. I cry all the time.

An Open Letter to Her Father:

Rambling Thoughts on Katelyn, RSO, etc

I've been notified by the sheriffs office that someone will begin my investigation. *sigh* Hanna tells me that my history with that office will be taken into account "-before I hand a child over to your drunk ass." He assures me that it will hit every point possible and I may need to do an interview myself.

I'm not sure how much stock I'd put into one of them interviewing me. I know Hanna isn't dumb. He thinks he knows me well-enough to place judgement on me. I just wish I had done things better in this town. Hanna and his cronies probably all think I'm incapable of something like love for that girl. I haven't smoked since I laid my eyes on her. My flask is still empty.

Before I simply lived with the memory. Now? I live for her. I don't know what I'll do if they decide to take her from me. That would be a lot of karma coming back on me, though. I just wish I could know now. Hanna made it sound like it would take a few days to get to the case. I hope its the married gent or his partner Marcelo. That bitch Chloe hates me almost as much as Neil. 

I'm going to end it here. I might try pleading my case with Hanna but I'm not sure he'll even want to see me. When he led that team in, he gave myself and Katelyn looks that could freeze an afterburner. I hate him for it, but I have to live with my dumb self. I really can't blame them. I guess one could say I hate myself for my own lack of responsibility.

Oh. Dear. God. LOLOL

This is a log from tonight. Quite interesting. A few were thrown for a loop.

Like the title says.

Alissa tries to come to terms with what is happening.

Here I am at Theos place. What kinda trouble have I gotten myself into this time???? Nothing bad, though. Alex asleep on the couch with me, snuggled up on me. Neigh trouble. I think whatever happened or was contrived to happen has been a blessing. Theo Gia and Alex are all okay and I'm SOOOOOO relieved to hear it.

After my last entry I ran into Theo at the train station the next day. I was too tired, but we met up the following night for drinks again. Alex came along and told the tale of the past few days. FLOOOOORED much?! I mean WOW! But I guess I'm going to be helping them out for awhile. Gias a handful and I'll do what I can to bring a little relaxation to the house. I can't wait to see the new place!! I'm so excited I can't sleep!! 

Still wondering about you Vance. Just an answer. That's all.